He left us on May the 15th 2004, my life
will never be the same without my baby. I was so proud
of him and the man he had become. He went to work
everyday and paid his own way in life. He had so many
friends, I never heard him speak badly of anyone at
anytime. His friends told me all about what kind of
man he was and let me tell you now that he was more of
man at 23 than I was at 38. Brandon would hug any
member of his family, no matter who it was and he
would always tell you how much he loved you. He was
never a drug user ever. He had a wreck on his
four-wheeler and banged him up pretty badly, this
happened on a Sunday and he went to work with the pain
on Monday and Tuesday, he called me Tuesday night and
we were trying to get a driver for his printer, he had
apparently gotten two painkillers (oxy-contin) from
one of his friends, after he talked to me till about
930 pm he called a couple of friends and the decided
to take the painkillers before he went to sleep. My
son did not wake up the next mourning. In the days to
follow I thought of so many things that I wanted to
say to him and now I will never have that chance to
say it. I talk to him everyday of my life and I will
continue to talk to him till the day I meet with him
again. It was so hard to maintain and there has been a
few times that I thought of taking my own life. If I
didn�t love his mother so much I would have. She gave
me the greatest thing I have ever had in my life, our
son Brandon Micheal Smith, and I will forever love
her. Through out my life Brandon never judged me, and
he easily could have, he was always on my side, I will
always remember his life, his no fear attitude, his
love, his hug, his smile, his kiss, his zest for life,
his laugh and I remember how he would get mad at me
and tell me that he had to do it his own way. This
young man did nothing that you and I have not done, we
have all ask another person �do you have some
painkillers� and we have taken them. I will never do
that again. I LOVE YOU BABY AND I LOOK FORWARD TO
SEEING YOU AGAIN and I will see you again
I want to add one more thing,, Brandon�s friends
filled his grave to the top, all of them waited to
step up and say goodbye. I have never seen or been to
a funeral where that happened, it was for Brandon and
I know he loved it. They drove his pickup with his
four-wheeler in the back to his funeral. So please
don�t take other peoples medication, I know we have to
get this oxy-contin out of use for minor pains and
general practioners. HUG YOUR CHILDREN EVERYDAY AND
TELL THEM HOW MUCH YOU LOVE THEM, TELL THEM HOW YOU
FEEL,LISTEN TO HOW THEY FEEL, SIT AND CHAT WITH THEM
ABOUT ANYTHING, YOU MIGHT NOT HAVE A CHANCE TO VISIT
WITH THEM TOMORROW.
